what started as a sonnet and never became one (#25)

Hello stranger, you've for years been gone
You left quick, no for love you've come to look
A love lost, for no attention was paid
To the burning passion within her heart
Now you return, Eden's garden awaiting
Since Lucifer held no allure
For someone like you, no, you want her back
What makes you think she will still be waiting?
She could belong to someone else
Or all alone, waiting for your love
Don't worry your pretty little head
She will be forever waiting
Until the day you finally return
Return home, return to her
To her arms and in yours she will jump
She will wait forever if she has to
You are always worth it and she will be forever yours

untitled and undated (#21)

If only one day you'd see, but you never will. I am too afraid to let you in, too afraid of being hurt, but longing to be yours.

Open your eyes, I'm no longer scared. See me for me and not the facade you see everyday, see me for the one you love, if only. If only.

Untitled and undated (#20)

To everything there is a darker side, a side seldom seen by anyone. A side so dark that black coal looks light and the abyss of night seems a pale sight. That side of me that holds those things which ought not be seen, but I find myself longing for you to see this other side of me. If only you'd open your eyes you'd see how my heart aches for you, how my heart breaks when you look away, how I long for those accidental brushes of our hands. I tell you to stop, but I don't mean it. Never stop. Stay with me. Love me before it all fades away. Before your beautiful eyes become no more than dust in the wind. Before your touch transforms to mere memory, swallowed by the tide. Before I forget the sight of your smile. Before it all fades away into the darkest side of me.

Untitled and undated (#19)

I sit here, with you
You know I am here
Yet you don't see
The darker side of me

The side that longs for you
To be with me, for you
To hold me, for you
To see me

The side of me that
Fell for you when
You first loved me
So many years ago

The side that looks at you
With ravenous hunger
In its passionate eyes
Whenever you are near

The side that longs for
Your soft touch and
For to finally love me
The way I love you

The First Kiss (#31)

You hold me close in your arms
So tight the embrace
Staring deeply into my eyes
We are all alone here

You smile, you positively glow
Your eyes sparkle
We lean into each other
With every second we grow closer

My lips part in anticipation
I can smell your sweet scent
I could count every gold fleck
That shines in your eyes

Our lips make contact
Magic explodes around me
Your hand holding mine
Your arm around my waist

Exuberantly elated
The kiss ceases
You stare into my eyes
Our smiles widen

Why fight?

Angry whispers crescendo
Louder, penetrating walls
Louder, breaking down doors
The door I closed to shut them both out
As they yell, Louder, Louder!!!
I close the door, lock the door
Hug my stuffed animals, turn up the music
Can't hear my own thoughts
But I can still hear them
Can still feel my tears
Rolling down my cheeks
As they fight
Horrid names fly under the door
Under my skin, into my heart
Television volume turned up
So my siblings don't see
My music turned up louder
Competing with them, hiding my sobs
So they don't see what they do to me
Fighting, fighting, over what?
What's the use? The same fight
Again and again, louder and louder
Same argument, same names, same fight
I hide further away in my mind
Lose myself in the music
As the tears roll down
Flow down, cascade down
Like rivers into waterfalls
Fighting, fighting, why?
Is it over? I think it is
Is it safe to approach either?
My sullen father? My crying mother?
Who to comfort? Neither
Cause once again, the perfect family
Only to wait until another frayed link breaks
And the same fight begins

I Need You To Love Me (#10)

I want to talk to you
To laugh with you
To smile with you
To joke with you
Can't you see that I need you?
I want to be with you
To run away with you
To walk with you
To spend lifetimes with you
Don't you see? I need you.
I want to be in love
For always and forever
Plus one extra day
Just to be with you more.
My life is perfect when I'm with you
A disaster when you're gone
I hate it when you're away
I want you to stay
I need you to stay
I need you to need me to
I need you to love me